Showing posts with label laziness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label laziness. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Laziness and creativity. Sigh.

I'm not even completely sure what laziness is, but I've got it.  Blame the winter.  Blame the 50,000 words I wrote in November as part of NaNoWrimo. Blame my old and aching back.  Whatever... it's laziness.

Every night, I meditate on a day spent re-reading familiar books and avoiding the laundry problem.  I find myself responding, rather than initiating contacts.  I assure you I am not depressed; I'm just lazy!

What's the cause?  Well, probably the winter is part of it; I'm not getting much exercise now that jogging season is over, and that means I'm low-energy.  But really, I think I've hit a fear point in my bigger projects.  The holidays came at just the right time for me to form a thousand excuses not to confront my fear of taking the next step.  Between entertaining the family and consuming upwards of a million Christmas cookies, I've been distracted enough to avoid my creativity anxiety.

The answer, my friends, is simple: laugh at my own foolishness and dive right back in. What is there to be afraid of?  Failure?  You only fail if you don't finish!  Set a schedule and let my family know about it, so that they can help give me that oh-so-gentle push. 

I only have one life, and within that life, all I have is each new day.  The sun is up, and it's time to get back to my life!